What Death Has Taught Me About Life

On Friday June 15th, Hailey's friend Maddy went to be with Jesus. Just 10 days shy of her 4th birthday. When I found out my heart broke into a million pieces. Her viewing was on Thursday and I fought with myself on if I should go or not. I didn't know her parents very well but they had been to Hailey's party and we had seen them at some daycare functions. My head was screaming NO! My heart on the other hand was saying go. My heart won. It was one of the hardest things I have done. Even though we didn't know each other well when I hugged her mom and it was just us, we were connected. Connected because we are moms and because our kids have been with each other almost everyday for the past 3 almost 4 years. I know we will never understand this side of Heaven and I know our God is a good, loving God. Is it fair? No, but it has really put things in a different light. The following list is what I want to change to make everyday count.

• Get out from behind the camera and be in more pictures.
• Be a more intentional parent by spending more one on one time with the girls, creating memories.
• Date my hubby! Have dates at home, and getting out of the house at least once a month.
• Open my home and have people over.
• Really start to take care of my health. I want to be around for a long time, so getting healthy is the first start.
• SMILE MORE
• LAUGH MORE

Life is so, so precious. I have always known that but have been just going through the motions. I have taken so much for granted and I want God to know how thankful and grateful I am for all that he has given me. I took a completely different route than what I thought I would, but I ended up where I have always wanted to be, as a wife and mother.

How will you make your days count??????

It's been a while

I know it has been FOREVER since I posted a blog but life is busy and this is one thing that hasn't made the cut. I thought I would give a little update about life and such.

First I finished bootcamp and started a new program called ChaLEAN Extreme, it's from the makers of P90X and I love it! Michael has been doing it along with me and that has been wonderful because I feel like we are both trying to get healthy instead of just me. The kids even join in sometimes. My eating habits are getting better, not perfect but I am really trying. I have lost about 8lbs and not sure how many inches but I know I feel better and my clothes are getting looser. I have tried not to make it all about a the number but just being happy and healthy and off of my blood pressure medication.

The body restoration class unfortunately had to take a back seat, who am I kidding, I just didn't make time for it. I don't know why, maybe I was afraid of what I would discover while doing the journaling and art projects. It runs again this summer and I have all the supplies and will commit myself to do it no matter the outcome. I don't want to be afraid of what could come up. I just want to deal with the issue and move past it, let God heal my hurts.

The kids are wonderful. The only real issue we are having is with Hailey. She WILL NOT go to bed at night, she always finds a reason to get up. We try to plan ahead and guess what she might want but it's always something new. So I printed out a Dora bedtime chart she is going to help me put together,  talked to Michael about a bedtime routine, and wrote out on a poster board the Supernanny stay in bed technique, we will be starting tonight, all prayers are welcomed!

One last note, I am going to be an AUNT! I am over the moon for my brother and his girlfriend. I can't wait to meet their baby girl in August. It's still strange that my little brother is going to be a Dad but he will be amazing and his girlfriend is going to be a great Mom!

!!!!ARGH!!!!!

I hope everyone has had a wonderful start to the New Year! I on the other hand have been sick since Jauary 1 :( I have not been able to start off this year like I had hoped to but I am starting to get better. I have had an awful cough and thought I was getting better so I attempted my 30 Day Shred video, ummmm not so good. It had me coughing so much that I threw up! I am going to attemp Zumba tonight but can't make any promises. On a happier note my oldest is having her birthday party Saturday and her birthday is Monday! I can't believe she is going to be 8!!!! Where has the time gone???? I have some fun things planned for her on Monday since she is out of school. I go back to work on Tuesday and I am ready. I am ready to get back on a normal schedule. I have cleaned up some of the hot spots in my house but didn't take before pics. It is so much better when I look at those areas and they are all organized. My Brave Girls Club class also started this week and I will post about it soon. Then my bible study starts on Sunday and bootcamp is in 2 weeks! I can't wait!